Have you ever thought to yourself that there is no point in setting new habits for yourself because you know in advance that you are not going to stick to them? If your answer is yes then you are not alone. I have thought it as well. Recently, I began to think that the reason that these new habits end in FAILS for me is because they aren’t the new habits FOR ME. Not yet at least.
Are the habits that you are putting into place to achieve your goals the correct habits for you?
Maybe we aren’t starting in the right place. Maybe we are looking at the goal from an outside looking in standpoint when we really need to look at it from the inside. They are our own personal goals are they not?
What do I even want to do?
I want to finish writing my current manuscript. I expect to have majority of the chapters at 10 pages or more. That means that I need to write XXX amount of words for every page to meet that goal. I should have about 30 chapters, so that is 300+ pages and before you know it, I am more focused on meeting the numbers than sitting down and writing the story. These tasks, these habits, these micro-goals are not conducive to the way that I operate. I hate numbers so why would I make NUMBERS part of something that validates my goal?
I also get in my own way with my expectations of self but that is for later.
My goal isn’t really to finish writing my current manuscript. My goal is to complete a piece of literature that is thought-provoking, risky, and different. A storyline that is complex yet woven together in a way that seems effortless. This kind of REAL goal for me means that I need to flesh out my settings, my characters, their motivations, etc. I need to determine what their thought processes are, what THEIR goals are, and be willing to take risks.
Goal: Development of Adenium
- Build Dynamic Characters with Backstories
- Select the Scenes/Backdrops and Make them seem alive
- Determine the Impact that each Character has on one another and how it alters their course
- Remind yourself DAILY why you are a writer, always have been, and that not even YOU know the full magnitude of what you can do